Do you ever get the feeling...

[Chemichonga]

Does it happen? Do you ever think about it..? Could you even do it? This is off topic so let's leave it off topic.. This has nothing to do with in game or silly care bear children play time. This isn't some joke.. Do you ever find yourself looking around a room to see all the faces around you and say, "I could kill that guy.." or you could see it play through your mind as you do it over and over again... with no emotion tied to it? I want to know if it's normal or if I'm alone out there. I really think about it more and more often, is it a sickness of the mind? I've never seeked out help because I never thought I would need it and I'm really not a social person; I'm usually the quiet one amongst strangers, even twitchy. I find it amusing that the only people who test my patience are those that are over the internet. I have these episodes of not caring for anything or anyone all I see are words in a negative form and imagin the person who dispises me for my thoughts. I think about how easy it is to enduce pain to change an opinion so quickly.

I'm not here for sympathy and from what I've seen you won't get it here but a bunch of name calling and stupidity. I'm under the impression that my life is lived only once. What we amount to is only precieved by what we wish to make of it. The truth of how insignificant life is...is just fucking sad. We are not even visible on this planet so what we do will decay and be replaced. Time is all it takes and when you stop to think about death what do you feel? Look at it how you want... I'm not here to bash religion so have at it.. Just how many people can say they felt the surge of ending another's life? The choking on blood and gurgling terrified end or the simple release of the last breath as the heart stops.. You only die once and I would prefer choking on blood, it wont hurt when you're dead.

Most the people I know have all had near death experiences. I myself have been thrown out of a building by my first step father. I'm really interested in what people are really thinking about when they look at you or the person beside you. I was always fascinated with psychology why we do what we do and for what purpose. Why we follow what we read and are told... the restraints we are shackled in are of fear. The only true thing we fear is death. One who does not fear death is not afraid. People kill others blindly for rage, passion, and just about any emotion... but what if you did it just because you could or the fact that life bores you? Everyone would know you and why is that? It's wrong, that's why; or is it how we read it or were told..? I'm leading on a sociopathic way and I know this...but how should I go about it if I'm not even sure if what I think is wrong? Nothing is normal and everything is permitted as no one is sane but everyone is insane to some extent. Tell me what you think and what I should do; I'm no more crazy to ask here than anywhere else.

[Carl Ragadamn]

tl;dr but keep going you entertain me.

[Sanshi44]

maybe try going in the sunlight for a few hours

[Chemichonga]

I'm not exactly sure what I could continue on about..

[Chomp]

You shouldn't have stopped taking your pills.

[Chemichonga]

maybe try going in the sunlight for a few hours

Hm... sunlight produces one of the highest forms of cancerous effects. I have things to do I can't die so... distasteful.

[mahirimsHunger]

...Er...I Truthfully believe I can slaughter My husband's mother's side of the family if they come on my property. I even had a very vivid dream of it. Kinda creepy how much I enjoyed that dream.


Psst..Babe, I think I might hate your mother?

[Temet nosce]

tl;dr but keep going you entertain me.

Agreed. He makes a much better wall of text than that random generator.

[Chemichonga]

You shouldn't have stopped taking your pills.

Pills are for ignorant people... People in ages past survived without such things... to think people need them now is just amusing.

[DocGonzo]

this makes more sense (http://thefrequency.ca/wp-content/uploads/2008/08/grandpa_simpson_yelling_at_cloud_001.jpg ), imo

seek professional guidance...i would , but i'm all full up on batshit fucking crazy at the moment...

[Chemichonga]

Agreed. He makes a much better wall of text than that random generator.

Thanks, I appreciate it. Any idea what I should do..? Perhaps you feel any similar?

[Chemichonga]

this makes more sense (http://thefrequency.ca/wp-content/uploads/2008/08/grandpa_simpson_yelling_at_cloud_001.jpg ), imo

seek professional guidance...i would , but i'm all full up on batshit fucking crazy at the moment...

So I should seek mental help... Even a full up on batshit shows honesty.

[Hypseos]

Are you related to Ammon777?

[Chemichonga]

Are you related to Ammon777?

No, but he has some good points.

[DocGonzo]

So I should seek mental help... Even a full up on batshit shows honesty.

read it again, child..."professional help" was what i said...could be a lot of things...YOU chose to think it meant mental help....how long have you realized you wanted to fuck your father and kill your mother with your puppy?

[Ftang]

Pills are for ignorant people... People in ages past survived without such things... to think people need them now is just amusing.
yeah...people in ages past survived without, or indeed in many cases, did not survive....

[Chemichonga]

read it again, child..."professional help" was what i said...could be a lot of things...YOU chose to think it meant mental help....how long have you realized you wanted to fuck your father and kill your mother with your puppy?

What would be professional to you?...I can't take care of animals... for shit.

[t1337Dude]

I'm not batshit insane, sorry.

[Chemichonga]

I'm not batshit insane, sorry.

Hmm... but you are insane.

[Hypseos]

No, but he has some good points.

He makes excellent points. He’s my forumfall hero, I wish he would post more. I just noticed some similar reasoning.

[DocGonzo]

What would be professional to you?...I can't take care of animals... for shit.

i could tell you, but then they would either make you sleep with the fishes, or the other guys would send you to gitmo

figure it out, einstein.... :rolleyes:

[5up3rn00b]

Does it happen? Do you ever think about it..? Could you even do it?

No. I didn't read the rest.

[Supercoolguy]

bewbz

[Temet nosce]

Thanks, I appreciate it. Any idea what I should do..? Perhaps you feel any similar?

This is Forumfall, sociopaths are a dime a dozen here, and psychopaths aren't exactly uncommon. You're probably trolling, but meh I'm to lazy today to give a shit. If you're serious, my only advice is not to take medication, just deal with it on your own.

[FraBaktos]

Just how many people can say they felt the surge of ending another's life? The choking on blood and gurgling terrified end or the simple release of the last breath as the heart stops..

Just how many people can say they felt the surge of saving another life? What you need sir, is empathy. A natural human trait though some I guess never develop it (like you, mr crazy).

[mahirimsHunger]

..xD..

Awe..I think what he's going through is normal. :D I get the same way sometimes.

Only people I'm not like that with are my husband and my daughter. :)

[Chemichonga]

i could tell you, but then they would either make you sleep with the fishes, or the other guys would send you to gitmo

figure it out, einstein.... :rolleyes:

You don't understand... I sometimes become obsessed with the thought of killing if someone thought they could kill me that easily... I hope they try, that way they came to me before I had to come after them.

[Chemichonga]

This is Forumfall, sociopaths are a dime a dozen here, and psychopaths aren't exactly uncommon. You're probably trolling, but meh I'm to lazy today to give a shit. If you're serious, my only advice is not to take medication, just deal with it on your own.

I'll be honest with you I'm not even sure what the hell trolling is... But I'll keep it in mind.

[Chemichonga]

Just how many people can say they felt the surge of saving another life? What you need sir, is empathy. A natural human trait though some I guess never develop it (like you, mr crazy).

Like I said before... I have episodes of little to no care. To think you are sane is to say I'm normal.

[Chemichonga]

..xD..

Awe..I think what he's going through is normal. :D I get the same way sometimes.

Only people I'm not like that with are my husband and my daughter. :)

I was kind of relieved until you stated husband and daughter. Then again I have neither wife nor child...

[Temet nosce]

I'll be honest with you I'm not even sure what the hell trolling is... But I'll keep it in mind.

So, a complete and total noob decided to randomly post a thread asking for advice in Forumfall, while well aware that it's one of the most indifferently cruel places on the internet. Yeah, totally believable there. I suppose less likely things have happened on here, but pardon my doubt. Or don't I don't particularly give a shit.

Anyways, simple lesson. No one cares. You can be completely indifferent to peoples suffering here when you aren't enjoying it, and all that'll happen is you'll fit right in. Personally, if someone I know dies the only thing I feel is guilt that I don't feel bad about it, and maybe irritation at having to attend a funeral.

[Chemichonga]

So, a complete and total noob decided to randomly post a thread asking for advice in Forumfall, while well aware that it's one of the most indifferently cruel places on the internet. Yeah, totally believable there. I suppose less likely things have happened on here, but pardon my doubt. Or don't I don't particularly give a shit.

Anyways, simple lesson. No one cares. You can be completely indifferent to peoples suffering here when you aren't enjoying it, and all that'll happen is you'll fit right in. Personally, if someone I know dies the only thing I feel is guilt that I don't feel bad about it, and maybe irritation at having to attend a funeral.

I wouldn't go as far as a complete and total noob... The brutal truth is what I endure if you havn't noticed and thank you again. If it bothers you then ignore me.

[Temet nosce]

I wouldn't go as far as a complete and total noob... The brutal truth is what I endure if you havn't noticed and thank you again. If it bothers you then ignore me.

I don't particularly care how far you'd go. If you want someone to tell you sweet lies, go elsewhere. As far as Forumfall is concerned that's exactly what you are, and will be for a long time.

Also, this isn't brutal. This is playing nice for Forumfall, I don't think you've had a single suicide suggestion in the whole thread. To be honest this is more entertaining than most shit 09ers post, so everyone is going easy on you.

[skull5005]

Oh god you live in the same state as me. -packs up and leaves.- Jk, but seriously you should go to counceling and get some help because ending anothers life is murder and you'll go to jail for it for a pretty longggggggg time. Read the ten commandments, #6 bro.

[Carl Ragadamn]

Also, this isn't brutal. This is playing nice for Forumfall, I don't think you've had a single suicide suggestion in the whole thread. To be honest this is more entertaining than most shit 09ers post, so everyone is going easy on you.

I can vouch for this, you would have had many flames and attempts to get you to fly into a rage, if people were not behaving today to not lose a shot at an open beta slot.

[Rokolith]

I don't particularly care how far you'd go. If you want someone to tell you sweet lies, go elsewhere. As far as Forumfall is concerned that's exactly what you are, and will be for a long time.

Also, this isn't brutal. This is playing nice for Forumfall, I don't think you've had a single suicide suggestion in the whole thread. To be honest this is more entertaining than most shit 09ers post, so everyone is going easy on you.

You're such a badass! You show that angsty OP how to angst properly! ;)

But for real, if you think hes just whoring attention then why did you indulge him with all these long posts asserting yourself as the tougher tough guy? Seems pathetic.

[mahirimsHunger]

I was kind of relieved until you stated husband and daughter. Then again I have neither wife nor child...

Does it count if I was WAY worse before I got married and popped out a kid?
: P
To be truthful.
I still to this day am surprised that someone wanted my mentally messed up self. ) :
So, I'm sure you're not alone either. Just ignore the trolling from those other punks by the way. There are actually a lot of people who are like you and how I used to be. ) : They are just too chicken crap to admit it.
<3

[Chemichonga]

I don't particularly care how far you'd go. If you want someone to tell you sweet lies, go elsewhere. As far as Forumfall is concerned that's exactly what you are, and will be for a long time.

Also, this isn't brutal. This is playing nice for Forumfall, I don't think you've had a single suicide suggestion in the whole thread. To be honest this is more entertaining than most shit 09ers post, so everyone is going easy on you.

Suicide...? Why would I waste my time with sobbing like a bitch and ending it all when it is much more fun to look at a person doing the exact same.

[verlox2]

Fucking 09ers are getting murderous now?

[Carl Ragadamn]

Does it count if I was WAY worse before I got married and popped out a kid?
: P
To be truthful.
I still to this day am surprised that someone wanted my mentally messed up self. ) :
So, I'm sure you're not alone either. Just ignore the trolling from those other punks by the way. There are actually a lot of people who are like you and how I used to be. ) : They are just too chicken crap to admit it.
<3

Crazy chicks are more fun...Anyone can be with a boring normal girl.

[Chemichonga]

I can vouch for this, you would have had many flames and attempts to get you to fly into a rage, if people were not behaving today to not lose a shot at an open beta slot.

I don't really feel the rage and I find it silly to fight over the internet. I'm just throwing my two cents but to see people get worked up over it is kind of odd.

[Chemichonga]

You're such a badass! You show that angsty OP how to angst properly! ;)

But for real, if you think hes just whoring attention then why did you indulge him with all these long posts asserting yourself as the tougher tough guy? Seems pathetic.

The internet does that to people.

[Temet nosce]

I can vouch for this, you would have had many flames and attempts to get you to fly into a rage, if people were not behaving today to not lose a shot at an open beta slot.

Aye, I keep forgetting that bit myself. Although I had somebody IM me with the words "Open beta", like ten times in caps an hour ago.

You're such a badass! You show that angsty OP how to angst properly! ;)

But for real, if you think hes just whoring attention then why did you indulge him with all these long posts asserting yourself as the tougher tough guy? Seems pathetic.

Why does anyone Forumfall? Boredom. Anyways, if I objected to feeding trolls and attention whores I wouldn't be on here.

Suicide...? Why would I waste my time with sobbing like a bitch and ending it all when it is much more fun to look at a person doing the exact same.

It doesn't matter whether you would, generally speaking at least a quarter of these posts would be suggesting you kill yourself if this was a normal 09er thread. Everyone is all touchy feely though since you haven't posted anything completely fucking retarded yet.

[AmonDominus]

You need to satisfy those killing urges and murder the first person you see.
Do it!

[Chemichonga]

Does it count if I was WAY worse before I got married and popped out a kid?
: P
To be truthful.
I still to this day am surprised that someone wanted my mentally messed up self. ) :
So, I'm sure you're not alone either. Just ignore the trolling from those other punks by the way. There are actually a lot of people who are like you and how I used to be. ) : They are just too chicken crap to admit it.
<3

Ah, well thank you for your input and honesty. I'm glad to read it. I have to go to college tomorrow... another day to stare at the backs of heads.

[mahirimsHunger]

Crazy chicks are more fun...Anyone can be with a boring normal girl.

Awe. : D Thank you.

[Chemichonga]

Crazy chicks are more fun...Anyone can be with a boring normal girl.

You've got a point my girlfriend is great but I don't exclude her.

[verlox2]

You've got a point my girlfriend is great but I don't exclude her.

Wait...you think about killing your girlfriend? I mean, you certainly wouldn't be the first guy to do that.

[mahirimsHunger]

Ah, well thank you for your input and honesty. I'm glad to read it. I have to go to college tomorrow... another day to stare at the backs of heads.

I dislike crowds...So I hated college. I would always chunk wrenchs and screw drivers at the guys that flirted with me. ) : You're a brave person.. Well, I consider you brave.

Might just be because crowds make me anxious and such..Makes me want to be mean.

[Chemichonga]

Aye, I keep forgetting that bit myself. Although I had somebody IM me with the words "Open beta", like ten times in caps an hour ago.



Why does anyone Forumfall? Boredom. Anyways, if I objected to feeding trolls and attention whores I wouldn't be on here.



It doesn't matter whether you would, generally speaking at least a quarter of these posts would be suggesting you kill yourself if this was a normal 09er thread. Everyone is all touchy feely though since you haven't posted anything completely fucking retarded yet.


Not sure what feeds your rage.. I'm sure some other uh... "09er" would tell you to stop but I don't care, have at it I have nothing to prove.

[Chemichonga]

I dislike crowds...So I hated college. I would always chunk wrenchs and screw drivers at the guys that flirted with me. ) : You're a brave person.. Well, I consider you brave.

Might just be because crowds make me anxious and such..Makes me want to be mean.

You think that was hard... imagin a speech class..

[Temet nosce]

Not sure what feeds your rage.. I'm sure some other uh... "09er" would tell you to stop but I don't care, have at it I have nothing to prove.

:lmao:

Is this some new habit? Usually people don't start complaining about me until I start flaming them. This is the second time today I've had someone whine about me when I hadn't even done anything.

If you still don't get it, I'm not angry. If anything I'm actually amused.

[Chemichonga]

:lmao:

Is this some new habit? Usually people don't start complaining about me until I start flaming them. This is the second time today I've had someone whine about me when I hadn't even done anything.

If you still don't get it, I'm not angry. If anything I'm actually amused.

Ah.. your selection of words say other wise. I guess it is good that you enjoy yourself then.

[mahirimsHunger]

You think that was hard... imagin a speech class..

Oh god..xD

[Chemichonga]

Oh god..xD

It is not all that bad, I just ignore their faces and look over their heads..

[Temet nosce]

Ah.. your selection of words say other wise. I guess it is good that you enjoy yourself then.

You're just used to people who care. I don't, so I don't bother with the usual polite lies and softening of my words. I mean exactly what I say, you can deal with or not. I'm indifferent, although you did make me smile. Which beats almost every other bloody 09er, so congrats I guess.

[mahirimsHunger]

It is not all that bad, I just ignore their faces and look over their heads..

I wish I could do that.
I got into the habit of making people avoid me by always looking angry. xD
It worked on everyone but my husband when I first met him....He says I look angry when I think now though.

[Ion_StormH]

I tried to read it, but I couldn't. This happens very seldom to me, and usually because it's bullshit from the first sentence on.

EditAfterForceRead: Emo. I do it, and it's called self-condititioning in order to react in possible life-threatening situations.

[Surly]

Is every single person in Select Few either mentally damaged or a fat blubbering crybaby?

Shut up and go drink some fucking beer instead of pondering the trivialities of your stupid whimsical inclinations and thoughts. It's life. Welcome. Now, again, go get your ass drunk and stop dwelling on bullshit.

[Chemichonga]

You're just used to people who care. I don't, so I don't bother with the usual polite lies and softening of my words. I mean exactly what I say, you can deal with or not. I'm indifferent, although you did make me smile. Which beats almost every other bloody 09er, so congrats I guess.

I'm not sure what you pick up on to make an analysis.. I don't think I rely on anyone to care as I stated before I don't seek sympathy. Then again if you read what I said the care of my step father was good enough to prove that point.

[Chemichonga]

Is every single person in Select Few either mentally damaged or a fat blubbering crybaby?

Shut up and go drink some fucking beer instead of pondering the trivialities of your stupid whimsical inclinations and thoughts. It's life. Welcome. Now, again, go get your ass drunk and stop dwelling on bullshit.

Oooh a fun one.

[Carl Ragadamn]

Ah.. your selection of words say other wise. I guess it is good that you enjoy yourself then.

Trust me in a week or two you will laugh when you thought he was raging in this thread... Hell why am I being nice in this thread, what has happened here?

Is every single person in Select Few either mentally damaged or a fat blubbering crybaby?

Shut up and go drink some fucking beer instead of pondering the trivialities of your stupid whimsical inclinations and thoughts. It's life. Welcome. Now, again, go get your ass drunk and stop dwelling on bullshit.
Thank God Surly is still the same, I thought we were in the twilight zone or something. Or it could just be those of us who are cakeless and fearful.

[Chemichonga]

I tried to read it, but I couldn't. This happens very seldom to me, and usually because it's bullshit from the first sentence on.

EditAfterForceRead: Emo. I do it, and it's called self-condititioning in order to react in possible life-threatening situations.

Emo is silly thats like gothic for fairies. I'm not emo.. I careless of what you think but continue on with what you do best.

[Rathynas]

I like to imagine myself arm/ankle/whatever barring, choking, or generally kicking the asses of people who piss me off. Of course, I could seriously kill them, so I try to ignore the thoughts. Then I have dreams of crushing their skulls, tearing their heads off, etc.

When I die, I want to get shot in the chest, but take whoever got me in that mess with me. And I'll lie there, looking up into the sky, thinking of how insignificant everyone is (except me), and then I'll go, "Uuuughhgbllechhgheughhh ehhh..." Already have it aaall planned out.

Oh, and welcome to the Sociopath Society. :]

[Chemichonga]

I like to imagine myself arm/ankle/whatever barring, choking, or generally kicking the asses of people who piss me off. Of course, I could seriously kill them, so I try to ignore the thoughts. Then I have dreams of crushing their skulls, tearing their heads off, etc.

When I die, I want to get shot in the chest, but take whoever got me in that mess with me. And I'll lie there, looking up into the sky, thinking of how insignificant everyone is (except me), and then I'll go, "Uuuughhgbllechhgheughhh ehhh..." Already have it aaall planned out.

Oh, and welcome to the Sociopath Society. :]

Yes, the crushing of the skull the crunch is the noise that sings to me as does any bone fracture.

[Quagmire]

It is normal my friend. I myself, hate my entire family. I was raised by my Mother and Grandfather, and apparently everybody in the family hated my grandfather, however, he could tell you about everything in history like it was nothing. He would be able tell you about anything in history like it just happened.

He already knew the US was going into the shitter because of how stupid people are and how they don't listen to reality or read history. The US is at a point in it's life-cycle that it will either fall like the Roman Empire or it will continue on.

The way I see it, if we continue on our current course we are gonna fall and burn just like the Roman Empire. We are paying for stupid shit that we shouldn't pay for and we actually give a fuck about other people who don't live in our country and don't want to live in our country.

Let us just worry about US that is fuck everyone else and worry about the United States first. If this Idea will cripple our Economy, FUCK YOU! If this Idea is going to cripple our military, FUCK YOU.

Let us worry about ourselves first than lets fix everybody else but not before.

[Hypseos]

A serious question if this really is a serious post. You ever get the chance for some fighting? Anything from a scrap outside the pub to some MMA or a martial art?

[Temet nosce]

Trust me in a week or two you will laugh when you thought he was raging in this thread... Hell why am I being nice in this thread, what has happened here?


Thank God Surly is still the same, I thought we were in the twilight zone or something. Or it could just be those of us who are cakeless and fearful.

The sad fact is Forumfall is suffering from overexposure to all the stupid fucking shit around here lately. By the last few months standards, this thread is nearly a bloody gem.

Surly, having been busy eating cake apparently doesn't suffer from this issue.

[Ion_StormH]

I careless of what you think but continue on with what you do best.

Yes right - That's why you post questions/statements such as:

Do you ever find yourself looking around a room to see all the faces around you and say, "I could kill that guy.." or you could see it play through your mind as you do it over and over again... with no emotion tied to it?

I'm no more crazy to ask here than anywhere else.

No question posed at this lovely community I sense here.

I find it amusing that the only people who test my patience are those that are over the internet.

'Tis because you are afraid of facing the consequences for being a loudmouth in real life.

I'm not emo.

Emo is an attitude, not a fashion style. Thus, you are.

My bad mood is quite easily explained - I'll have to leave the house in exactly five minutes. So, what could be your problem if you're the quiet guy in real-life, but tend to be "careless" when ravaging the internetz?

[Chemichonga]

A serious question if this really is a serious post. You ever get the chance for some fighting? Anything from a scrap outside the pub to some MMA or a martial art?

Actually yes, family affairs included along with training.

[mahirimsHunger]

Is every single person in Select Few either mentally damaged or a fat blubbering crybaby?

Shut up and go drink some fucking beer instead of pondering the trivialities of your stupid whimsical inclinations and thoughts. It's life. Welcome. Now, again, go get your ass drunk and stop dwelling on bullshit.



Awe....I think you should go drink some beer to drown out your aggressive cries for attention. : ) We know that's all trolling and badmouthing really is. Specially when you go out of your way to go into a thread just to do it. <3

[Chemichonga]

Yes right - That's why you post questions/statements such as:





No question posed at this lovely community I sense here.



'Tis because you are afraid of facing the consequences for being a loudmouth in real life.



Emo is an attitude, not a fashion style. Thus, you are.

My bad mood is quite easily explained - I'll have to leave the house in exactly five minutes. So, what could be your problem if you're the quiet guy in real-life, but tend to be "careless" when ravaging the internetz?

I don't face loudmouth consequences in real life... How do you even know me? Face to face would you even talk to me..? I only want opinion to my questions not some flaming chatter that the majority does here. It is unavoidable though so have at it.

[Surly]

Awe....
Awe is goddamn right!

[Chemichonga]

Well my time is up for tonight.. I got school tomorrow to teach me some new lesson in how to become a more concrete person. Had fun and the opinions were about as much as I would of expected from anyone who isn't serious. Have the night to yourselves I'll be back to read the complaints... ugh. Maybe the lucky few of us wont be here tomorrow.

[Sarukia]

Does it happen? Do you ever think about it..? Could you even do it? This is off topic so let's leave it off topic.. This has nothing to do with in game or silly care bear children play time. This isn't some joke.. Do you ever find yourself looking around a room to see all the faces around you and say, "I could kill that guy.." or you could see it play through your mind as you do it over and over again... with no emotion tied to it? I want to know if it's normal or if I'm alone out there. I really think about it more and more often, is it a sickness of the mind? I've never seeked out help because I never thought I would need it and I'm really not a social person; I'm usually the quiet one amongst strangers, even twitchy. I find it amusing that the only people who test my patience are those that are over the internet. I have these episodes of not caring for anything or anyone all I see are words in a negative form and imagin the person who dispises me for my thoughts. I think about how easy it is to enduce pain to change an opinion so quickly.

I'm not here for sympathy and from what I've seen you won't get it here but a bunch of name calling and stupidity. I'm under the impression that my life is lived only once. What we amount to is only precieved by what we wish to make of it. The truth of how insignificant life is...is just fucking sad. We are not even visible on this planet so what we do will decay and be replaced. Time is all it takes and when you stop to think about death what do you feel? Look at it how you want... I'm not here to bash religion so have at it.. Just how many people can say they felt the surge of ending another's life? The choking on blood and gurgling terrified end or the simple release of the last breath as the heart stops.. You only die once and I would prefer choking on blood, it wont hurt when you're dead.

Most the people I know have all had near death experiences. I myself have been thrown out of a building by my first step father. I'm really interested in what people are really thinking about when they look at you or the person beside you. I was always fascinated with psychology why we do what we do and for what purpose. Why we follow what we read and are told... the restraints we are shackled in are of fear. The only true thing we fear is death. One who does not fear death is not afraid. People kill others blindly for rage, passion, and just about any emotion... but what if you did it just because you could or the fact that life bores you? Everyone would know you and why is that? It's wrong, that's why; or is it how we read it or were told..? I'm leading on a sociopathic way and I know this...but how should I go about it if I'm not even sure if what I think is wrong? Nothing is normal and everything is permitted as no one is sane but everyone is insane to some extent. Tell me what you think and what I should do; I'm no more crazy to ask here than anywhere else.

wheee i'm not the only messed up person around. Might be a bit more messed up then you thou. Also what idoit would fear death either you fade into nothing and then death means nothing or you live on in some other form or rebirth. Its like a gamble what person don't like to gamble.
Just as stupid as those who get upset or sad about death their dead. If you knew them be happy you got to know them and move on. If you knew them and they still exist in some form they wouldn't want you to be burdened with anger or sadness. If they fade into nothing then its just wasted energy.

[Honest Bill]

God damn it, this would all be very interesting if i hadn't lost count of the amount of people i've met, who think that pretending to be 'dark' and 'crazy' is interesting. It isn't interesting, it's stupid and annoying. Go and smoke weed and have underage sex like a normal teenager, and stop boring the internet with your private fantasies.

[Chemichonga]

wheee i'm not the only messed up person around. Might be a bit more messed up then you thou. Also what idoit would fear death either you fade into nothing and then death means nothing or you live on in some other form or rebirth. Its like a gamble what person don't like to gamble.
Just as stupid as those who get upset or sad about death their dead. If you knew them be happy you got to know them and move on. If you knew them and they still exist in some form they wouldn't want you to be burdened with anger or sadness. If they fade into nothing then its just wasted energy.

I agree, I find funerals as pointless rituals. The person died, move on they won't come back and honoring the dead is about the most boring thing I've witnessed.

[Chemichonga]

God damn it, this would all be very interesting if i hadn't lost count of the amount of people i've met, who think that pretending to be 'dark' and 'crazy' is interesting. It isn't interesting, it's stupid and annoying. Go and smoke weed and have underage sex like a normal teenager, and stop boring the internet with your private fantasies.

Weed is just a silly escape for a period of time as are any drugs. I don't need to escape what I believe.. Never assume anything just because you enjoy relating past topics or events. I don't pretend and I have no interest in admitting I'm crazy or dark. You use these words to explain me but you don't even begin to understand me.

[alphawolf]

God damn it, this would all be very interesting if i hadn't lost count of the amount of people i've met, who think that pretending to be 'dark' and 'crazy' is interesting. It isn't interesting, it's stupid and annoying. Go and smoke weed and have underage sex like a normal teenager, and stop boring the internet with your private fantasies.

Why is it that every fucking rastafarian wanna-be hippie faggot finds the need to try to get people to smoke weed. I don't want to smoke your god damned plant. EVERY pothead I knew in college tried to get me and other people to light up. Fuck you and your ilk.

[Chemichonga]

Well, there concludes another terrific day. I sat in class yesterday staring at smiles; are they smiling because they are happy? Perhaps they really are happy but I find it amusing that the happiest people tend to be the well defined "retarded." Too bad, I can honestly say people that are retarded have some pretty great benefits throughout life. Special forms of classes, treatment, and payment. Hell, I'd probably be happy too. I'm not sad and I'm not angry, I'm just indifferent. I was wondering yesterday just as the teacher spoke but nothing but a simple Charlie Brown impression came out to me. I thought about what kind of a careers there are that promote the simplistic of killing; of course it has to be in an acceptable nature towards society. First to come to thought was some branch of military, I thought about it but I came to the conclusion that it would be of little enjoyment and in small doses if any. Let me know if you have any ideas of your own. Refrain from the involvement of hit men or some pansy mafia drug running; I want to be able to go into society, perhaps well paid, to kill without any of the oh-so-obvious mundane of delays.

[saltwaterteffy]

Well, there concludes another terrific day. I sat in class yesterday staring at smiles; are they smiling because they are happy? Perhaps they really are happy but I find it amusing that the happiest people tend to be the well defined "retarded." Too bad, I can honestly say people that are retarded have some pretty great benefits throughout life. Special forms of classes, treatment, and payment. Hell, I'd probably be happy too. I'm not sad and I'm not angry, I'm just indifferent. I was wondering yesterday just as the teacher spoke but nothing but a simple Charlie Brown impression came out to me. I thought about what kind of a careers there are that promote the simplistic of killing; of course it has to be in an acceptable nature towards society. First to come to thought was some branch of military, I thought about it but I came to the conclusion that it would be of little enjoyment and in small doses if any. Let me know if you have any ideas of your own. Refrain from the involvement of hit men or some pansy mafia drug running; I want to be able to go into society, perhaps well paid, to kill without any of the oh-so-obvious mundane of delays.

i say you start small by working in a slaughter house and then once you're managing one...the serial killing can begin.

[Chemichonga]

i say you start small by working in a slaughter house and then once you're managing one...the serial killing can begin.

It would suffice the need I'm sure but I can't be sloppy about it. Something socially acceptable, for that reason I can't be stopped and I can endure.

[saltwaterteffy]

It would suffice the need I'm sure but I can't be sloppy about it. Something socially acceptable, for that reason I can't be stopped and I can endure.

might i suggest working at a hallmark and then jumping out of people's greeting cards with a big fuckin knife?

[Chemichonga]

might i suggest working at a hallmark and then jumping out of people's greeting cards with a big fuckin knife?

Meh, great idea but more realistic.

[Hypseos]

I want to be able to go into society, perhaps well paid, to kill without any of the oh-so-obvious mundane of delays.


How about going to Switzerland and getting a job in one of their euthanasia hospices?

[Death's Chill]

I think of it in the sense that I feel I could take someone else in a fight. It's just a guy thing, but I don't really think about killing him.

In society, killing someone is easy because rarely is anyone on guard. The element of surprise is too powerful because no one expects you to come after them with an axe. Just look at American Psycho to get an idea of what I mean.

It's not wrong to think about it, it's only wrong to act upon those thoughts.

[bruse]

Chemi

I've been where you are.

I guess the only input I can provide is that it developed into "hope" in my case.
Once it gets "to far" and you understand how meaningless you really are, it transforms into some sort of feeling of freedom really that I'm sure you have experienced, eventually that clarity develops into a sense of hope and in my case at least caused me to live without restraints what so ever and in the way I want to. I mean "if your so pointless why not make the most of it" I guess is how I see it.
And in my case for what it's worth, the whole curiosity for causing pain and so on, that all fades.

I guess in a way it's a lot like puberty in a way, only it's very rare and people think you are crazy, and maybe they are right I don't know really.
If you ask me though it's simply a combination of curiosity of humanity gone a tad bit too far and likely close contact with death as in our case.

[Chaosborn]

How about going to Switzerland and getting a job in one of their euthanasia hospices?

Yea, they keep producing good newspaperarticles here. One of them got caught throwing the ashes of deceased people into a sea :eek:

[Chemichonga]

I think of it in the sense that I feel I could take someone else in a fight. It's just a guy thing, but I don't really think about killing him.

In society, killing someone is easy because rarely is anyone on guard. The element of surprise is too powerful because no one expects you to come after them with an axe. Just look at American Psycho to get an idea of what I mean.

It's not wrong to think about it, it's only wrong to act upon those thoughts.

Yeah, it's not wrong to think apparently; I'm starting to think I should go ahead and act upon it. I'm not exactly good at anything in particular and neither do I enjoy much of anything. Maybe I would enjoy this and perhaps I might even be half decent at it.

Chemi

I've been where you are.

I guess the only input I can provide is that it developed into "hope" in my case.
Once it gets "to far" and you understand how meaningless you really are, it transforms into some sort of feeling of freedom really that I'm sure you have experienced, eventually that clarity develops into a sense of hope and in my case at least caused me to live without restraints what so ever and in the way I want to. I mean "if your so pointless why not make the most of it" I guess is how I see it.
And in my case for what it's worth, the whole curiosity for causing pain and so on, that all fades.

I guess in a way it's a lot like puberty in a way, only it's very rare and people think you are crazy, and maybe they are right I don't know really.
If you ask me though it's simply a combination of curiosity of humanity gone a tad bit too far and likely close contact with death as in our case.

I don't see any hope in humanity alone; it's an even bigger joke to find it in me. It truly disgusts me, just about every corner I turn there it is like a mass of cancer ready to be clipped away. I see no hope in repeating the same boring and distasteful long line that we all walk day in and day out. I don't want to repeat my life for the end of my days. Why? Just so I can retire and sit on my wrinkly old ass and look back just to lie to myself, "I lived a good life" when it's more along the lines of living a good life in servitude you ragged used up bitch; whereas all along I could have just pulled the damn trigger. I'd rather be submerged in a life time of pain than roll over just to submit and fade away.

[Czepa]

I don't see any hope in humanity alone; it's an even bigger joke to find it in me. It truly disgusts me, just about every corner I turn there it is like a mass of cancer ready to be clipped away. I see no hope in repeating the same boring and distasteful long line that we all walk day in and day out. I don't want to repeat my life for the end of my days. Why? Just so I can retire and sit on my wrinkly old ass and look back just to lie to myself, "I lived a good life" when it's more along the lines of living a good life in servitude you ragged used up bitch; whereas all along I could have just pulled the damn trigger. I'd rather be submerged in a life time of pain than roll over just to submit and fade away.I can agree with this.

[Rathynas]

Chemichonga, you're just so dark and insensitive... I wish to fuck you. Please? I like dark, sociopathic freaks like you! ;)

Also, I wouldn't go about with an attitude like that. I could probably kick your ass, and I'm a 16-year-old girl. Imagine all the other defenseless-looking randoms out there who could kick your ass. You're probably going to pick a fight with the wrong person and get some sense knocked into you.

[Chemichonga]

Chemichonga, you're just so dark and insensitive... I wish to fuck you. Please? I like dark, sociopathic freaks like you! ;)

The one thing I'll say I've noticed is the fact that women are attracted towards me more than the next guy. I don't understand it; this is the internet and the odds of you being female are slim. Odds are if I met you I'd think about killing you even in the act.

Perhaps I'm the wrong person.

[Top Hat]

1. Find a person

2. Get a weapon

3. ????

4. Death

Really though, get help, it helps. You're not normal and this time, it's not cool.

[Sintalation]

Wow was not entirely sure what to make of this post, but I can say that after reading the first eh paragraph I felt like I lost a few IQ points. Someone was seriously bored or off their meds.

~¥~ Lady §in ~¥~

[Chemichonga]

1. Find a person

2. Get a weapon

3. ????

4. Death

Really though, get help, it helps. You're not normal and this time, it's not cool.

I enjoyed your 4 step program more though.

Wow was not entirely sure what to make of this post, but I can say that after reading the first eh paragraph I felt like I lost a few IQ points. Someone was seriously bored or off their meds.

~¥~ Lady §in ~¥~

Thank you for your contribution. I'll take both your thoughts into consideration. I don't take medication and I don't intend to.

[Top Hat]

I enjoyed your 4 step program more though.

I figured as much. Tell me this, why did you post this thread?

[Chemichonga]

I figured as much. Tell me this, why did you post this thread?

I'm curious as to what people might think. Besides, I'm interested in your opinion. Most people have everything to hide and you could never hope to get the truth out of a single person even if they wrote it (or typed it in my situation). I have nothing to hide and I'm not afraid of what you or anyone thinks. Besides if you flame this what was the point? Ha-ha, good one. Your flame comes to about as great of significance as the rest of my words. Everyone else just puts up threads of their own opinions, here's mine.

[Rathynas]

The one thing I'll say I've noticed is the fact that women are attracted towards me more than the next guy. I don't understand it; this is the internet and the odds of you being female are slim. Odds are if I met you I'd think about killing you even in the act.

Perhaps I'm the wrong person.

No, I'm actually not attracted to you. "Dark," "insensitive," and "crazy" is not cool. It's a tool thing. You know, tools. People who like to think they're awesome so they try to act like their favorite villain on TV or in the movies and just end up looking like fools. Real badassery is not professing your eagerness to kill on a gaming forum. I'm going to go ahead and admit that I think I'm very badass, but I guess most people think of themselves as badass. But I don't go around saying I'm a dark and insensitive individual. It's about personality, not defining yourself with words. You don't define yourself; others define you. Being a real badass gets you good attention (even if you don't want it...), unlike fake "badasses" who strive for attention and only get the bad kind (which they like for some reason).

Also, I know how to protect myself, do sports that involve fighting daily (so I wouldn't mess with me if I were you), and will injure/incapacitate someone if they try to harm my body. I would not try to kill someone, though. That's just asking for trouble. Like you are.

And yeah, I'm a girl. Amazing, huh, that a girl is on the internet. Oh my God, it's going to rain fire and purple zombie platypuses are going to eat us... Big deal.

[Top Hat]

I'm curious as to what people might think. Besides, I'm interested in your opinion. Most people have everything to hide and you could never hope to get the truth out of a single person even if they wrote it (or typed it in my situation). I have nothing to hide and I'm not afraid of what you or anyone thinks. Besides if you flame this what was the point? Ha-ha, good one. Your flame comes to about as great of significance as the rest of my words. Everyone else just puts up threads of their own opinions, here's mine.

Alright, so if there is nothing to hide, why don't you try seeing some form of professional help? I mean, you aren't afraid of anything, are you?

[Chemichonga]

Alright, so if there is nothing to hide, why don't you try seeing some form of professional help? I mean, you aren't afraid of anything, are you?

I'm afraid I won't be able to satisfy myself. I don't really know why I never seek professional help. I don't think I'm help able. Then again, I tend to think I never needed help to begin with. What could they possibly offer me that no other person couldn't do themselves?

[Top Hat]

I'm afraid I won't be able to satisfy myself. I don't really know why I never seek professional help. I don't think I'm help able. Then again, I tend to think I never needed help to begin with. What could they possibly offer me that no other person couldn't do themselves?

Unbiased view on helping a crazy.

[Chemichonga]

No, I'm actually not attracted to you. "Dark," "insensitive," and "crazy" is not cool. It's a tool thing. You know, tools. People who like to think they're awesome so they try to act like their favorite villain on TV or in the movies and just end up looking like fools. Real badassery is not professing your eagerness to kill on a gaming forum. I'm going to go ahead and admit that I think I'm very badass, but I guess most people think of themselves as badass. But I don't go around saying I'm a dark and insensitive individual. It's about personality, not defining yourself with words. You don't define yourself; others define you. Being a real badass gets you good attention (even if you don't want it...), unlike fake "badasses" who strive for attention and only get the bad kind (which they like for some reason).

Also, I know how to protect myself, do sports that involve fighting daily (so I wouldn't mess with me if I were you), and will injure/incapacitate someone if they try to harm my body. I would not try to kill someone, though. That's just asking for trouble. Like you are.

And yeah, I'm a girl. Amazing, huh, that a girl is on the internet. Oh my God, it's going to rain fire and purple zombie platypuses are going to eat us... Big deal.

Again, I repeat myself. You can define me as you wish but no one word can or will do. Besides from what you collect you suggest I'm dark and insensitive. I'm not dark.. I just don't care I'm indifferent. From the start this had nothing to do with the game; I see this as nothing more than a forum which to place words. I don't go for a "badass" title I go for what I want and how I perceive things. You fail to see I don't care what you think and anyone could read your sarcasm. So could you say anyone who befriended you suddenly stabs you. Can you say that you would react correctly? Believe me, I can blend into society and its games. You wouldn't even see it coming. I'm not threatening you, I'm simply telling you.

[Chemichonga]

Unbiased view on helping a crazy.

I just want honest opinion. It helps rather to speak to a wall that asks, "how does that feel?"

[Rathynas]

Again, I repeat myself. You can define me as you wish but no one word can or will do. Besides from what you collect you suggest I'm dark and insensitive. I'm not dark.. I just don't care I'm indifferent. From the start this had nothing to do with the game; I see this as nothing more than a forum which to place words. I don't go for a "badass" title I go for what I want and how I perceive things. You fail to see I don't care what you think and anyone could read sarcasm. So could you say anyone who befriended you suddenly stabs you. Can you say that you would react correctly? Believe me, I can blend into society and its games. You wouldn't even see it coming.

I'm suggesting you're trying to be dark and insensitive because you think it's cool. Naturally someone with a psychology you claim to have would not be posting here.

I would see it coming. I'm over-cautious like that. I have been attacked before. People have tried to kill and rape me, and it hasn't worked yet, so there's not much of a chance you could do anything to me.

I just want honest opinion. It helps rather to speak to a wall that asks, "how does that feel?"

Okay, you know what, I'll answer your question. Yes, I do think about it. I play it out in my head. I imagine random people popping out of nowhere with a gun or knife or whatever and how I would disarm them and protect myself. That's just me preparing for if something does happen. I like to be prepared.

[Estrang]

Hm... sunlight produces one of the highest forms of cancerous effects. I have things to do I can't die so... distasteful.

I think it produces cancer as a result of the cancerous pollutants from factories and cars, magnifying its effects beyond its normal intended amounts, that aside, I think the number of cancer victims in first world countries is significantly lower than in urban areas.

[Chemichonga]

Naturally someone with a psychology you claim to have would not be posting here.

So you know for a fact that they wouldn't?

[Rathynas]

So you know for a fact that they wouldn't?

Not for a fact, but I really doubt they would. Usually an insane person would hide their homicidal thoughts or not realize that they're different. And insane person who reveals stuff like this is just attention-seeking, not really homicidal. That's why I suspect you're just thinking too much into it, or are trying to sound interesting. I'm not sure which to think.

[Top Hat]

I just want honest opinion. It helps rather to speak to a wall that asks, "how does that feel?"

So you already know you will be talking to a wall? Because you've been there already? Alright. Makes sense.

[Chemichonga]

Not for a fact, but I really doubt they would. Usually an insane person would hide their homicidal thoughts or not realize that they're different. And insane person who reveals stuff like this is just attention-seeking, not really homicidal. That's why I suspect you're just thinking too much into it, or are trying to sound interesting. I'm not sure which to think.

Usually an insane person. What makes people defined as insane? So you must be truly sane. The ones that are sane are the ones you should watch out for. Insane to most people is an unpredictable individual. I'm seeking opinion not some attention. Look at it how you want; we are all unique.

[Chemichonga]

So you already know you will be talking to a wall? Because you've been there already? Alright. Makes sense.

Most of things do.

[Rathynas]

Usually an insane person. What makes people defined as insane? So you must be truly sane. The ones that are sane are the ones you should watch out for. Insane to most people is an unpredictable individual. I'm seeking opinion not some attention. Look at it how you want; we are all unique.

Joker wannabe?

What kind of an answer do you want? What are you really asking?

[7dskei]

Pills are for ignorant people... People in ages past survived without such things... to think people need them now is just amusing.

Just wanted to start here... just because this is the stupidest statement I've read in this thread. "To think people need them now is just amusing." People don't need the pills, they want them. Sure there may be some special conditions, BUT why not take the opportunity to make YOUR life better by taking one simple pill. In the end it's the person's decision on whether or not they want supplements, and if it means saving your life I can guarantee a shit load of people would take it.

Back to the top. Of course I think about shit that I would never do. "I could totally force this girl into submission, or bash that kids face in." "Easily could mutilate that guy over there",or even taking my dog into submission and tear out his insides... just how easily I could do it and no one would even know. It's just the things I think about. Of course these thoughts are most likely influenced by some outside force/event that happened. Maybe you watched to many movies when you were young, or you simply just don't care. Would someone carry out what they're thinking? It comes down to the person. After I think about those thoughts, I tell myself to STFU and tell myself I could never bring myself to do that. It doesn't really matter if I feel emotions when I think it, that doesn't decide If I would do it or not.

Death... death. Stupid topic. Easiest thing to figure out. Just die. No one else needs to know. I always catch myself thinking about what happens after death. Hell, I even get excited about getting older, because I know I am one year closer to finding out. Now I'm not just going to go a throw my life away for something I'm not sure about. That would be just plain out stupid. These thoughts are related a manga I read awhile back about the afterlife, and the decisions people made when they died. How they let their anger with their loved ones get the better of them. I found it very interesting, and I wanted to know so bad after that what happens when you die.

Seriously, you shouldn't mind any of these thoughts. I find them very normal depending on the circumstances people are raised under. They aren't out of the ordinary, and they are completely sane. After all you're only putting your mind to work.

Of course most of this is my opinion. You don't have to consider any of what I'm saying.

[Chemichonga]

Joker wannabe?

What kind of an answer do you want? What are you really asking?

Ah, reference to a character.

Your take of sanity vs insanity.

[Chemichonga]

Just wanted to start here... just because this is the stupidest statement I've read in this thread. "To think people need them now is just amusing." People don't need the pills, they want them. Sure there may be some special conditions, BUT why not take the opportunity to make YOUR life better by taking one simple pill. In the end it's the person's decision on whether or not they want supplements, and if it means saving your life I can guarantee a shit load of people would take it.

Back to the top. Of course I think about shit that I would never do. "I could totally force this girl into submission, or bash that kids face in." "Easily could mutilate that guy over there",or even taking my talk into submission and tearing out his insides... just how easily I could do it and no one would even know. It's just the things I think about. Of course these thoughts are most likely influenced by some outside force/event that happened. Maybe you watched to many movies when you were young, or you simply just don't care. Would someone carry out what they're thinking? It comes down to the person. After I think about those thoughts, I tell myself to STFU and tell myself I could never bring myself to do that. It doesn't really matter if I feel emotions when I think it, that doesn't decide If I would do it or not.

Death... death. Stupid topic. Easiest thing to figure out. Just die. No one else needs to know. I always catch myself thinking about what happens after death. Hell, I even get excited about getting older, because I know I am one year closer to finding out. Now I'm not just going to go a throw my life away for something I'm not sure about. That would be just plain out stupid. These thoughts are related a manga I read awhile back about the afterlife, and the decisions people made when they died. How they let their anger with their loved ones get the better of them. I found it very interesting, and I wanted to know so bad after that what happens when you die.

Seriously, you shouldn't mind any of these thoughts. I find them very normal depending on the circumstances people are raised under. They aren't out of the ordinary, and they are completely sane. After all you're only putting your mind to work.

Of course most of this is my opinion. You don't have to consider any of what I'm saying.

Good point, except how is it MY life will be better from taking a simple pill? Also I'm not talking about life or death I'm talking about repressing mental anguish.

[swiftbuster]

Man i worked at tacobell for a year,i swear every day when some customer would bitch at one of the people working there about there taco not having enough lettuce or there drink not being diet whatever,i wanted to take piping hot grease and drop it on there faces.

Now i know whoever has worked in fastfood has had that feeling before,and if you havent then you must be a saint.

[7dskei]

Pills are for ignorant people... People in ages past survived without such things... to think people need them now is just amusing.

I'm quoting you again because you fail to see your original statement. Never in the above quote did you refer to yourself. You referred to a large group of people over a huge time span in the past since people have lived.

And you referred to present people... didn't want to feel stupid.....>>:LKld;faSDFASDF

[Top Hat]

Most of things do.

Alright, I'm done feeding the Y SO SRS troll.

[Chemichonga]

Man i worked at tacobell for a year,i swear every day when some customer would bitch at one of the people working there about there taco not having enough lettuce or there drink not being diet whatever,i wanted to take piping hot grease and drop it on there faces.

Now i know whoever has worked in fastfood has had that feeling before,and if you havent then you must be a saint.

I haven't worked there yet, I tend to not work with people face to face. I usually quit my job for no reason and find another.

[Chemichonga]

Alright, I'm done feeding the Y SO SRS troll.

Do whatever you want.

[Chemichonga]

I'm quoting you again because you fail to see your original statement. Never in the above quote did you refer to yourself. You referred to a large group of people over a huge time span in the past since people have lived.

And you referred to present people... didn't want to feel stupid.....>>:LKld;faSDFASDF

Perhaps you didn't see that I was referred to as taking pills for my mental well being. So I engaged to state that people in the past didn't need them "implying" I don't.

[7dskei]

Good point, except how is it MY life will be better from taking a simple pill? Also I'm not talking about life or death I'm talking about repressing mental anguish.

Just wondering if you ever thought about afterlife. My suicidal thoughts come from what I MAYBE think will happen afterlife. Maybe killing myself at an early age because I will be stuck at the age in heaven when I die. (FYI I don't even believe in god. Capitalize god? I think not. There's no reason to.)

Has anyone here ever thought about killing yourself just to find out what happens? Of course I'm not stupid enough to do it, but it's more than fun to think about.
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[Top Hat]

Do whatever you want.

I always do. Final words though, stop the attention whoring. You're special, we get it.

[7dskei]

I've decided to STFU. This is coming to an attention topic and I'm losing. I've watch this fucking movie on the television twice in a row and I'm losing. I've decided that you are a stubborn person, and I'm losing. I don't care what you think of my judgment about you because I'm losing. I regret joining this chat because I'm losing. I'm done chatting with you because I'm losing.
Attention whore.

[Chemichonga]

Just wondering if you ever thought about afterlife. My suicidal thoughts come from what I MAYBE think will happen afterlife. Maybe killing myself at an early age because I will be stuck at the age in heaven when I die. (FYI I don't even believe in god. Capitalize god? I think not. There's no reason to.)

Has anyone here ever thought about killing yourself just to find out what happens? Of course I'm not stupid enough to do it, but it's more than fun to think about.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH VISTA COPY AND PASTEzasdga wsedf asd;hfljkh

I don't see the fun in killing myself just the adrenaline in others. I believe we return to what we remember before we were born. Nothing.

I always do. Final words though, stop the attention whoring. You're special, we get it.

Your opinion can't be changed. Do as you see fit and as will I.

[Chemichonga]

I've decided to STFU. This is coming to an attention topic and I'm losing. I've watch this fucking movie on the television twice in a row and I'm losing. I've decided that you are a stubborn person, and I'm losing. I don't care what you think of my judgment about you because I'm losing. I regret joining this chat because I'm losing. I'm done chatting with you because I'm losing.
Attention whore.

Not stubborn just replying. Don't mean to come off like that. Always interested in your thoughts otherwise.

[7dskei]

My ability to think causes me to lose sleep. Forgive me for looking tired, but it's not because I think. It's because you're boring me.

This one... this one is mine.

[Chemichonga]

My ability to think causes me to lose sleep. Forgive me for looking tired, but it's not because I think. It's because you're boring me.

This one... this one is mine.

I'm boring you on a forum? What do you do for entertainment?

[Chemichonga]

Well, there concludes another terrific day. I sat in class yesterday staring at smiles; are they smiling because they are happy? Perhaps they really are happy but I find it amusing that the happiest people tend to be the well defined "retarded." Too bad, I can honestly say people that are retarded have some pretty great benefits throughout life. Special forms of classes, treatment, and payment. Hell, I'd probably be happy too. I'm not sad and I'm not angry, I'm just indifferent. I was wondering yesterday just as the teacher spoke but nothing but a simple Charlie Brown impression came out to me. I thought about what kind of a careers there are that promote the simplistic of killing; of course it has to be in an acceptable nature towards society. First to come to thought was some branch of military, I thought about it but I came to the conclusion that it would be of little enjoyment and in small doses if any. Let me know if you have any ideas of your own. Refrain from the involvement of hit men or some pansy mafia drug running; I want to be able to go into society, perhaps well paid, to kill without any of the oh-so-obvious mundane of delays.

Restating this just in case anyone missed it or over looked my question.

[7dskei]

I'm boring you on a forum? What do you do for entertainment?

I've decided to rejoin chat, because I'm losing. I'm tired because I'm losing. I'm losing because that quote wasn't directed at you. I'm losing because you didn't know that. I'm losing because I see attention, and I just don't care.

This one is mine.

[Chemichonga]

I've decided to rejoin chat, because I'm losing. I'm tired because I'm losing. I'm losing because that quote wasn't directed at you. I'm losing because you didn't know that. I'm losing because I see attention, and I just don't care.

This one is mine.

Interesting, so what quote wasn't directed at me?

[Chemichonga]

I'm not exactly sure what people refer to as attention whoring. What do any of us do when you wish to grab the attention of a reader? Each thread does the same thing. I see fallacy in this. So getting my attention to respond could you say that is also whoring of my attention? Hmm, interesting.

[7dskei]

Well, there concludes another terrific day. I sat in class yesterday staring at smiles; are they smiling because they are happy? Perhaps they really are happy but I find it amusing that the happiest people tend to be the well defined "retarded." Too bad, I can honestly say people that are retarded have some pretty great benefits throughout life. Special forms of classes, treatment, and payment. Hell, I'd probably be happy too. I'm not sad and I'm not angry, I'm just indifferent. I was wondering yesterday just as the teacher spoke but nothing but a simple Charlie Brown impression came out to me. I thought about what kind of a careers there are that promote the simplistic of killing; of course it has to be in an acceptable nature towards society. First to come to thought was some branch of military, I thought about it but I came to the conclusion that it would be of little enjoyment and in small doses if any. Let me know if you have any ideas of your own. Refrain from the involvement of hit men or some pansy mafia drug running; I want to be able to go into society, perhaps well paid, to kill without any of the oh-so-obvious mundane of delays.

YOU ARE expecting STORIES. I've decided you think a lot like me. I need to brush my teeth tonight. I need more information. Do you read manga? Have you read Freesia? What kind of stories do you read?

[Chemichonga]

YOU ARE expecting STORIES. I've decided you think a lot like me. I need to brush my teeth tonight. I need more information. Do you read manga? Have you read Freesia? What kind of stories do you read?

I don't read manga, not exactly sure what you mean by freesia. I've read some Edgar Allan Po.

[7dskei]

I don't read manga, not exactly sure what you mean by freesia. I've read some Edgar Allan Po.

Edgar Allan Po. Well if you think anything like I do, I would say you are expecting something out of the ordinary to happen. How many times a day do I do hand signals a day knowing nothing will happen, but hoping something will? I don't know. I want to find that special someone. I obsess over that person. Man or women? Does it matter? If I can share a love greater with one or the other, does it matter? Why do I try to force myself to face women? I find myself easily obsessing over random girls, only to find out I want sex. Badly. I want to experience what the stories tell. I want to have everything out of the ordinary happen, and I want it now. I would gladly give up everything I don't have a chance with for these things to happen. I want the love in the stories I've read. I want children and a wonderful job, and I want it now. I want Gantz to exist, but unfortunately I have to die to find that out.

[Ghostonfire]

I'm not exactly sure what people refer to as attention whoring. What do any of us do when you wish to grab the attention of a reader? Each thread does the same thing. I see fallacy in this. So getting my attention to respond could you say that is also whoring of my attention? Hmm, interesting.

You seem like a very intelligent person and I envy your reasoning.

Sometimes I get that feeling of killing someone but I think everyone gets that way. I think its normal.
Of course I will probably never follow through with it because I feel I have a lot to live for and I dont want to spend the rest of my life running or in prison. and if you think about it that person you kill is not feeling any more pain while you are.

I suggest counseling. when I was younger I went to counseling for anger manegement and I think it was the best choice I ever made. I use to get mad at the smallest things but now Im so patient and compassionate about other peoples feelings it sometimes surprises me.

If someone is being a jerk I just imagine them having a bad day. or if someone is lashing out instead of lashing back I put myself in their shoes and try to understand what they are feeling.

my thoughts of violence have decreased significantly since counseling.

[Dazarthas]

Let's smoke some hash and make more threads about the stupid shit we think about while we're baked. Yeah, awesome idea.

[Chemichonga]

You seem like a very intelligent person and I envy your reasoning.

Sometimes I get that feeling of killing someone but I think everyone gets that way. I think its normal.
Of course I will probably never follow through with it because I feel I have a lot to live for and I dont want to spend the rest of my life running or in prison. and if you think about it that person you kill is not feeling any more pain while you are.

I suggest counseling. when I was younger I went to counseling for anger manegement and I think it was the best choice I ever made. I use to get mad at the smallest things but now Im so patient and compassionate about other peoples feelings it sometimes surprises me.

If someone is being a jerk I just imagine them having a bad day. or if someone is lashing out instead of lashing back I put myself in their shoes and try to understand what they are feeling.

my thoughts of violence have decreased significantly since counseling.

Well, it definitely shocks me that someone actually took the time with serious intent and responded truthfully. Maybe it's normal to think it but to continue thinking it more each day I'm not so certain. I can tie no emotion to killing a person so that indeed is different. From what you say you must have at least tied some anger to those thoughts. I'll consider counseling but I can't seem to look past the fact that I want to do this. Running or prison just doesn't even come to mind when I think about it; when it is brought to my attention I think it is probably better to be isolated there than working the rest of my life through some sort of self fulfilling lie.

[Chemichonga]

God damn it, this would all be very interesting if i hadn't lost count of the amount of people i've met, who think that pretending to be 'dark' and 'crazy' is interesting. It isn't interesting, it's stupid and annoying. Go and smoke weed and have underage sex like a normal teenager, and stop boring the internet with your private fantasies.

Weed is just a silly escape for a period of time as are any drugs. I don't need to escape what I believe.. Never assume anything just because you enjoy relating past topics or events. I don't pretend and I have no interest in admitting I'm crazy or dark. You use these words to explain me but you don't even begin to understand me.

Let's smoke some hash and make more threads about the stupid shit we think about while we're baked. Yeah, awesome idea.

Answered.

[7dskei]

Well, it definitely shocks me that someone actually took the time with serious intent and responded truthfully. Maybe it's normal to think it but to continue thinking it more each day I'm not so certain. I can tie no emotion to killing a person so that indeed is different. From what you say you must have at least tied some anger to those thoughts. I'll consider counseling but I can't seem to look past the fact that I want to do this. Running or prison just doesn't even come to mind when I think about it; when it is brought to my attention I think it is probably better to be isolated there than working the rest of my life through some sort of self fulfilling lie.

You really think you're way of thought is different don't you? Pull the shit that Hitler had the balls to do, or any mass murderer for that fact, and I'll consider you different from the rest of (my made up statistics, WHY SHOULDN'T I MAKE THEM UP) the 99.99% of the people that have lived.

Yes I do realize this is stupid. And did you know we have the ability to slow down time?

[Chemichonga]

You really think you're way of thought is different don't you? Pull the shit that Hitler had the balls to do, or any mass murderer for that fact, and I'll consider you different from the rest of (my made up statistics, WHY SHOULDN'T I MAKE THEM UP) the 99.99% of the people that have lived.

Hitler was considered an idiot and an intelligent man. If you think you are the same as everyone else then I don't have to point out that you are insane.

[Dazarthas]

Let's smoke some psychosis and make more threads about the stupid shit we think about while we're baked. Yeah, awesome idea.

There, fixed.

[Rathynas]

Your take of sanity vs insanity.

Sanity is the normal, understanding state of mind. Insanity is being oblivious to what's around you and behaving erratically, believing something irrational, or reacting to your environment in irrational ways. In my opinion, most of the people in this world are somewhat insane.

Perhaps you didn't see that I was referred to as taking pills for my mental well being. So I engaged to state that people in the past didn't need them "implying" I don't.

People in the past would have liked them and would have needed (don't argue semantics here) them. Just because we invented something recently doesn't mean people in the past wouldn't have needed them.

I don't read manga, not exactly sure what you mean by freesia. I've read some Edgar Allan Po.

Ummm, that's all you've read? :P Read moar, pliz. Like The Odyssey, The Inferno, Beowulf, other classics... Much better than Poe, in my opinion.

Well, it definitely shocks me that someone actually took the time with serious intent and responded truthfully.

Hey, I answered you seriously and truthfully a few pages back.

[Ghostonfire]

You really think you're way of thought is different don't you? Pull the shit that Hitler had the balls to do, or any mass murderer for that fact, and I'll consider you different from the rest of (my made up statistics, WHY SHOULDN'T I MAKE THEM UP) the 99.99% of the people that have lived.

Yes I do realize this is stupid.

Wow your really going to tell him to go a long with it?
I hope your the first person he kills then.


on topic though I dont think you should go on mass murder raids. Counseling would be your best option. you can talk to us on the forums and get flamed for thinking differently when you could be talking to someone who actually wants to help you (for the right amount of cash)

But tell me.. Are you getting these thoughts when you look at random people or just people who mistreat you?

I cant decide who gets to live or die but some people I feel would be better off dead if thats how they are going to treat people.

If you get these thoughts toward random people and dont have any remorse toward how ending that persons life would affect others than I think you have a serious issue.

[Chemichonga]

Sanity is the normal, understanding state of mind. Insanity is being oblivious to what's around you and behaving erratically, believing something irrational, or reacting to your environment in irrational ways. In my opinion, most of the people in this world are somewhat insane.


People in the past would have liked them and would have needed (don't argue semantics here) them. Just because we invented something recently doesn't mean people in the past wouldn't have needed them.



Ummm, that's all you've read? :P Read moar, pliz. Like The Odyssey, The Inferno, Beowulf, other classics... Much better than Poe, in my opinion.



Hey, I answered you seriously and truthfully a few pages back.

Good job. Didn't think you would do it. Sanity is normal no one person is normal so we all hold insanity.

Okay, so what was the point? I would like to state that the only reason I used the past was because people managed to get so far without the need of altering their own thought process. Not medical use.... Never did I state medical.

I've read Beowulf, and that is good that is your own opinion.

I'll admit you are the most engaging 16 year old girl I've met.

[7dskei]

Hitler was considered an idiot and an intelligent man. If you think you are the same as everyone else then I don't have to point out that you are insane.

By who? Someone that said he was an intelligent idiot, and you happen to agree? I very much so thought he was one of the greatest, smartest, people. Not for what he did, but for how he did it. No... no I'm not insane, I just know for a fact. I'm thinking just like you about daily life and the way we think, and potentially, so are hundreds of thousands of other kids. SO WHY SHOULDN'T I FEEL THE SAME OF A SHITLOAD OF OTHER PEOPLE? Not everyone is an individual.

And for some reason I keep going back to Emerson's Self Reliance essay.

[Chemichonga]

Wow your really going to tell him to go a long with it?
I hope your the first person he kills then.


on topic though I dont think you should go on mass murder raids. Counseling would be your best option. you can talk to us on the forums and get flamed for thinking differently when you could be talking to someone who actually wants to help you (for the right amount of cash)

But tell me.. Are you getting these thoughts when you look at random people or just people who mistreat you?

I cant decide who gets to live or die but some people I feel would be better off dead if thats how they are going to treat people.

If you get these thoughts toward random people and dont have any remorse toward how ending that persons life would affect others than I think you have a serious issue.

I'd say everyone actually. Mistreating me or not doesn't really matter at times. I've even looked at my own girlfriend and family a few times.

[Chemichonga]

By who? Someone that said he was an intelligent idiot, and you happen to agree? I very much so thought he was one of the greatest, smartest, people. Not for what he did, but for how he did it. No... no I'm not insane, I just know for a fact. I'm thinking just like you about daily life and the way we think, and potentially, so are hundreds of thousands of other kids. SO WHY SHOULDN'T I FEEL THE SAME OF A SHITLOAD OF OTHER PEOPLE? Not everyone is an individual.

And for some reason I keep going back to Whitmans Self Reliance essay.

People believe what they chose to believe. No.. people have said he was either of the two but perhaps you could find someone with the opinion he was an intelligent idiot. Who knows what people are thinking, that is why psychology is so interesting. You just never know a person even if it was your best friend or kin alike.

[Rathynas]

Okay, so what was the point? I would like to state that the only reason I used the past was because people managed to get so far without the need of altering their own thought process. Not medical use.... Never did I state medical.

Well, they actually did alter their minds using certain drugs, medical or not. That's where our modern medicine originates from. Most people back then were too busy worrying about staying alive and sustaining their family to contemplate going on killing sprees.

By who? Someone that said he was an intelligent idiot, and you happen to agree? I very much so thought he was one of the greatest, smartest, people. Not for what he did, but for how he did it. No... no I'm not insane, I just know for a fact. I'm thinking just like you about daily life and the way we think, and potentially, so are hundreds of thousands of other kids. SO WHY SHOULDN'T I FEEL THE SAME OF A SHITLOAD OF OTHER PEOPLE? Not everyone is an individual.

I don't think anyone would consider you insane for thinking Hitler was pretty great. What he did wasn't that great ethically, but he was pretty great at manipulating and mass murdering people while still being a sexy charmer.

[Chemichonga]

Well, they actually did alter their minds using certain drugs, medical or not. That's where our modern medicine originates from. Most people back then were busier worrying about staying alive and sustaining their family to contemplate going on killing sprees.





I'm sure to a point there was but to another point there wasn't.

[Chemichonga]

Well, I guess I'll see you all tomorrow, I'm retiring for the night. Perhaps I'll be back to go over the flames and respond to whoever actually answers my questions sincerely. I bid you adieu.

[Rathynas]

I'm sure to a point there was but to another point there wasn't.

What do you mean?

[Honest Bill]

Well, I guess I'll see you all tomorrow, I'm retiring for the night. Perhaps I'll be back to go over the flames and respond to whoever actually answers my questions sincerely. I bid you adieu.

When you start asking questions sincerely, people may start answering them as such. Stop trolling, stop acting all dark and sensitive, come to the stark realisation that nobody gives a fuck about you, then finally shut the fuck up!

This thread is lame

[Hypseos]

This thread is lame

It’s lame but its funny to read, let him keep going. Btw I totally agree with your advice. That cured all my teenage rage issues :D

[Honest Bill]

It’s lame but its funny to read, let him keep going. Btw I totally agree with your advice. That cured all my teenage rage issues :D

Haha. pity some people never figure that one out though isn't it?

[Fruitbasket]

Just eat some bacon and eggs.

[dinkfall]

Existential angst. All the time.

[Honest Bill]

Existential angst. All the time.

Then please refer to Fruitbasket's prudent advice above you

[Chemichonga]

When you start asking questions sincerely, people may start answering them as such. Stop trolling, stop acting all dark and sensitive, come to the stark realisation that nobody gives a fuck about you, then finally shut the fuck up!

This thread is lame

So then what was your reason for replying? I think the word you wanted was insensitive. I don't care what you think. I just want your opinion towards my questions. If I'm not sincere enough then please do explain otherwise continue to do what you do best.

It’s lame but its funny to read, let him keep going. Btw I totally agree with your advice. That cured all my teenage rage issues :D

I don't have rage, besides if I did I would rant and rave and sink into your paradox of slander and disrespect just like a never ending story. That is boring, I just want an honest opinion but continue; I can't stop you but neither can you stop I.

[Hypseos]

I don't have rage, besides if I did I would rant and rave and sink into your paradox of slander and disrespect just like a never ending story. That is boring, I just want an honest opinion but continue; I can't stop you but neither can you stop I.


Never said you had rage, I was talking about myself. From what you say you have a total lack of empathy or emotions with no interest in getting any. No one can help you enjoy life if you don’t want to and if you want my opinion I’d rather you killed your self than killed some one who might enjoy their life just to see how if it makes you feel.

[Chemichonga]

Never said you had rage, I was talking about myself. From what you say you have a total lack of empathy or emotions with no interest in getting any. No one can help you enjoy life if you don’t want to and if you want my opinion I’d rather you killed your self than killed some one who might enjoy their life just to see how if it makes you feel.

Killing myself is a boring way to go.

[Hypseos]

You make it sound as if you are very bored with life anyway.

[Chemichonga]

You make it sound as if you are very bored with life anyway.

Maybe ending it makes things more interesting. Never know till we try.

[Hypseos]

That’s something I’ve heard fiercely argued and I’m sort of convinced, I just don’t mind waiting another 50-60 years to find out. But if there was nothing in life I enjoyed… Is that what you are saying? You have tried everything life has to offer except killing people and you didn’t enjoy it?

[Munty]

Well the way i see life is very positive, and it may be because im very religious...

I always think of things "In the light" as i call it, or in other words, looking at the bright side. I think in the way "How can i help you" or "What service can i provide for the betterment of everyone." I live my life devoted to my family, God and to help others. I welcome Death, in fact i look forward to it (not like commiting suicide, look forward to it).

But its your thoughts, everyone thinks differently, like im sure not everyone thinks the way I do. Many are afraid of death and what not, and its normal.

Not sure if that covers your post, it was such a wall of text, I read most but not all of it (i like to scan the forums, not read all of them).

[ejnomad07]

Are you related to Ammon777?

Now that is a man that can make a wall of text.....

[Chemichonga]

That’s something I’ve heard fiercely argued and I’m sort of convinced, I just don’t mind waiting another 50-60 years to find out. But if there was nothing in life I enjoyed… Is that what you are saying? You have tried everything life has to offer except killing people and you didn’t enjoy it?

So are you asking I can try everything in one life? I contemplate doing certain things and I can dislike an activity just by observation. I find we live in this world of flaws and a long line of servitude just to grow old... I'm repeating myself. Life lived as socially set is a long line of boring repetition. Killing people is not in a norm society. Besides, I'm starting to get some enjoyment just thinking about picking a person piece by piece as I toy with them to the bitter sweet end.

[Hypseos]

Now that is a man that can make a wall of text.....

Yeah I miss his posts :(

[Chemichonga]

Well the way i see life is very positive, and it may be because im very religious...

I always think of things "In the light" as i call it, or in other words, looking at the bright side. I think in the way "How can i help you" or "What service can i provide for the betterment of everyone." I live my life devoted to my family, God and to help others. I welcome Death, in fact i look forward to it (not like commiting suicide, look forward to it).

But its your thoughts, everyone thinks differently, like im sure not everyone thinks the way I do. Many are afraid of death and what not, and its normal.

Not sure if that covers your post, it was such a wall of text, I read most but not all of it (i like to scan the forums, not read all of them).

I don't believe in god. If it was real it would of stopped me long ago. I look forward to an interesting death.

Now that is a man that can make a wall of text.....

Do you enjoy him for his views alone or his slander and rage against other people?

[Hypseos]

I contemplate doing certain things and I can dislike an activity just by observation.



I use to think this. Found out that although I was some times right I wasn’t always. Especially when it comes to sensory or emotional things. Thought and observation doesn’t do justice to things that only exist as feelings and experiences. But I am saying that as some one who does have empathy and feels emotions.

Besides, I'm starting to get some enjoyment just thinking about picking a person piece by piece as I toy with them to the bitter sweet end.


If you enjoy thinking about that maybe you should try writing it into a murder story see if people will pay for what you enjoy.

[Chemichonga]

If you enjoy thinking about that maybe you should try writing it into a murder story see if people will pay for what you enjoy.

Not sure that people would be interested in buying a book about someone wanting to actually kill people.

[Hypseos]

Not sure that people would be interested in buying a book about someone wanting to actually kill people.

Oh shit yeah man. That’s a huge market. Not really my taste but its definitely out there. You probably have to be real graphic though. You seen American Psycho? That was a best selling book before being a film.

[Laura Serena]

Chemichonga, I didn't read the whole thread (skimmed first few pages), but all I can suggest is from my experience: Write a Blog/Diary.

I suggest: don't share it with everyone and anyone, but also don't create an Anonymous one. I personally use MSN Spaces, since it updates friends who have you added to their lists when new entries appear, otherwise people won't even know your writing anything, obviously, heh.

If you do already have a blog of some kind, then that's great.

That's all I have to contribute to this thread, without... yeah, that's all.

[promethium3000]

If you think about it so often then just do it. Grab yourself some necessary tools and go find a drifter. There is one of three ways it can go, you can either become obsessed with the feeling of taking another persons life and keep doing it over and over (i.e serial killer), or you can fall into a deep depression and eventually take your own life in an attempt to even out the situation. The last situation is you get it out of your system and stop worrying about it. Go have fun!

[Chemichonga]

Oh shit yeah man. That’s a huge market. Not really my taste but its definitely out there. You probably have to be real graphic though. You seen American Psycho? That was a best selling book before being a film.

So fiction writing is your take?

Chemichonga, I didn't read the whole thread (skimmed first few pages), but all I can suggest is from my experience: Write a Blog/Diary.

I suggest: don't share it with everyone and anyone, but also don't create an Anonymous one. I personally use MSN Spaces, since it updates friends who have you added to their lists when new entries appear, otherwise people won't even know your writing anything, obviously, heh.

If you do already have a blog of some kind, then that's great.

That's all I have to contribute to this thread, without... yeah, that's all.

I don't have a blog. I felt this was just a spur of the moment and it just came to me really. I've always felt this way and ignored it but lately it just keeps surfacing. Even if I spilled my existence the only thing you really know is that someone like me is among you. So whom do you suggest I share it with if I can't with everyone or anyone?

[Chemichonga]

If you think about it so often then just do it. Grab yourself some necessary tools and go find a drifter. There is one of three ways it can go, you can either become obsessed with the feeling of taking another persons life and keep doing it over and over (i.e serial killer), or you can fall into a deep depression and eventually take your own life in an attempt to even out the situation. The last situation is you get it out of your system and stop worrying about it. Go have fun!

Maybe I'll have fun with you?

[promethium3000]

Maybe I'll have fun with you?

Well I suggested a drifter because there is generally no strings attached but if you want to make things more complicated go for it.

[Chemichonga]

Well I suggested a drifter because there is generally no strings attached but if you want to make things more complicated go for it.

No complication in dieing.

[Hypseos]

So fiction writing is your take?


Well my “take” is really go get drunk get in a fight then have sex with some one and smoke some weed. But if you don’t like any of that then yeah try see if writing your fantasy into fiction helps. Then since you got it see if anyone will give you money for it :D

[promethium3000]

Theres complications with people concerned about why another person died. Noone cares about a drifter.

[Chemichonga]

Theres complications with people concerned about why another person died. Noone cares about a drifter.

So just use the guy as a test subject? That could work.

[promethium3000]

So just use the guy as a test subject? That could work.

Yeah sure, but it really isnt very hard to kill someone, its been proven on many occasions that an idiot can do it, so I doubt you need a test subject.

[Chemichonga]

Well my “take” is really go get drunk get in a fight then have sex with some one and smoke some weed. But if you don’t like any of that then yeah try see if writing your fantasy into fiction helps. Then since you got it see if anyone will give you money for it :D

What is it that drives everyone to this same conclusion? Either a fight, sex, or some type of drug use. Is that just how everyone else was trained to deal with their problems? If I do intend to write I'll refer to your name in it. Writing about it might not help but I'll let my professor handle reviewing it.

[Chemichonga]

Yeah sure, but it really isnt very hard to kill someone, its been proven on many occasions that an idiot can do it, so I doubt you need a test subject.

Never said it was hard, it just might give me an idea of how well they handle dieing. There are a few bums in the area too.

[Hypseos]

What is it that drives everyone to this same conclusion? Either a fight, sex, or some type of drug use. Is that just how everyone else was trained to deal with their problems? If I do intend to write I'll refer to your name in it. Writing about it might not help but I'll let my professor handle reviewing it.

Simply because it feels good and its fun. To many people the most important thing is having fun.

Thanks for putting my name to it. You should check out American Psycho if you haven’t seen it. Its about a man in his 30s with a top job and all the material stuff he could want who suddenly starts feeling the way you do. He starts off just murdering drifters as well then moves on to more elaborate murders. Can’t remember how it ends, its been years since I saw it.

[Chemichonga]

Simply because it feels good and its fun. To many people the most important thing is having fun.

Thanks for putting my name to it. You should check out American Psycho if you haven’t seen it. Its about a man in his 30s with a top job and all the material stuff he could want who suddenly starts feeling the way you do. He starts off just murdering drifters as well then moves on to more elaborate murders. Can’t remember how it ends, its been years since I saw it.

Sounds interesting.

[promethium3000]

So much romanticism is put into the act of murder since your taking the life of another sentient being. But in all actuality commiting murder is no worse then killing any other life form. People die every day by natural and unnatural causes. Sure people will grieve over the situation but after a year or so all but the people closest to the victim generally go on with their lives. The ones who do have severe adverse effects to the lose of a loved one, can go on to hurt others or use their new found sorrow to benefit the world in some way (i.e Batman) but most of the time nothing happens and the world as a whole is unaffected. When I tell you to go kill someone see how it feels to take the last breath from another human, I am seriously telling you to do that. If you can live with with what you have done then go for it. Because really the person most effected by a murder is the murderer.

[Chemichonga]

So much romanticism is put into the act of murder since your taking the life of another sentient being. But in all actuality commiting murder is no worse then killing any other life form. People die every day by natural and unnatural causes. Sure people will grieve over the situation but after a year or so all but the people closest to the victim generally go on with their lives. The ones who do have severe adverse effects to the lose of a loved one, can go on to hurt others or use their new found sorrow to benefit the world in some way (i.e Batman) but most of the time nothing happens and the world as a whole is unaffected. When I tell you to go kill someone see how it feels to take the last breath from another human, I am seriously telling you to do that. If you can live with with what you have done then go for it. Because really the person most effected by a murder is the murderer.

The most it would make me feel is the obsession to do it again.

[promethium3000]

Ok well thats for you to deal with and doesnt change my argument.

[Chemichonga]

Ok well thats for you to deal with and doesnt change my argument.

It's a good one. I'll agree with it.

[promethium3000]

Glad I could help.

[Harsk]

The truth of how insignificant life is...is just fucking sad



Actually, in this I find the most comfort.


As far as murder, how arrogant.

[Ramathorn]

You say youre in college, you really should take some psychology classes and learn a little about your brain and society. Maybe you will understand empathy and how your conscience is developed and learn what your insticts control.
You obviously have lost control of your basic functions that keep you in good with the society around you. You have become rather selfish in a matter that you can single yourself out like this. What gives you the right to negate our common goal as a species and that is to expand and grow with each other.
Our developement of our conscience is a new thing for us humans in the last 5000 years and you have obviously started to lose yours. Pretty soon you will become what society hates. And that is a preconscience animal.
Remember, animals don't have a conscience and you sir are becoming one.
Don't give up you shitty humanity so easily it took a long time for us to get to this point and were just at the beginning.

[promethium3000]

You say youre in college, you really should take some psychology classes and learn a little about your brain and society. Maybe you will understand empathy and how your conscience is developed and learn what your insticts control.
You obviously have lost control of your basic functions that keep you in good with the society around you. You have become rather selfish in a matter that you can single yourself out like this. What gives you the right to negate our common goal as a species and that is to expand and grow with each other.
Our developement of our conscience is a new thing for us humans in the last 5000 years and you have obviously started to lose yours. Pretty soon you will become what society hates. And that is a preconscience animal.
Remember, animals don't have a conscience and you sir are becoming one.
Don't give up you shitty humanity so easily it took a long time for us to get to this point and were just at the beginning.

I can easily say the opposite. That he has transcended humanities basic moralities and is able to function as more of a human then any of us. If humanity would just toss aside these pre-concieved notions of morality we could make real progess in the fields of technology and medicine. Maybe his proposed actions with his new found clarity arent the best course of action, but what really holds are society down is these "civilized" morals you speak so strongly of.

[Ramathorn]

That he has transcended humanities basic moralities and is able to function as more of a human then any of us.

I think what your saying is to evolve past what we are now not go back to an animal state of mind.
Our brains are constantly evolving, and a conscience that I speak of is not a religious conscience. It is all molded by our society and can be changed. Only we can change this as a whole and yes we are holding ourselves back but were advancing at the same time because of it.
If we never developed these brain functions we have now do you think we would have ever made it out of the stoneage? Or the preconscience age I would say? All our society is based on it.
Some day we may become enlightened, but we have to lose our animal instincts to get there. To kill each other should require a basic logic. If you want to go kill people at least go kill people to benefit our species rather then running around killing random people. :)

[Chemichonga]

You say youre in college, you really should take some psychology classes and learn a little about your brain and society. Maybe you will understand empathy and how your conscience is developed and learn what your insticts control.
You obviously have lost control of your basic functions that keep you in good with the society around you. You have become rather selfish in a matter that you can single yourself out like this. What gives you the right to negate our common goal as a species and that is to expand and grow with each other.
Our developement of our conscience is a new thing for us humans in the last 5000 years and you have obviously started to lose yours. Pretty soon you will become what society hates. And that is a preconscience animal.
Remember, animals don't have a conscience and you sir are becoming one.
Don't give up you shitty humanity so easily it took a long time for us to get to this point and were just at the beginning.

I have taken psychology and sociology. Selfish in a matter to singling me out... so you shun me for being unique and open minded? We expand and grow forever and ever till the day we as a species is no more. My reason to end it is because from the beginning we have no meaning and no difference in the world. Society leads you to believe you make a difference. When in fact you die and nothing comes from it. My conscience tells me that it is pointless. I am well aware of the fact that it is all but a waste of time for an inevitable outcome. Believe me, the way we perceive the world is silly I mean just look at me for instance. I'm free to walk next to you and play along but it is easy to deceive. Humanity is a lost cause and shall remain that; you can't hope to fix our course.

[Chemichonga]

If you want to go kill people at least go kill people to benefit our species rather then running around killing random people. :)

I would kill random people because you all share the same flaw. You think you matter.

[Harsk]

so you shun me for being unique and open minded?


More for trying to be menacing and threatening to others. But close enough.

[Chemichonga]

Let me put it to you this way. Let us say that Joe is in the bath room; he just took a nice long shower to get himself nice and clean. Joe has a big day today at his job and must follow up with a presentation. Joe gets out and begins to brush his teeth he makes sure he looks acceptable. Joe just finishes and is ready to walk outside the bathroom door when suddenly a plane crashes into his home and obliterates him. You think he might of wasted his time getting ready and clean? I like to think we do this from the day we take our first step.

[OttoSturm]

I've actually had moments like that, plenty actually. Doesn't mean I'm violent or mentally unstable though. Like I wonder how certain things I could do at a specific moment would change the lives of witnesses.

If I were to go outside and strike random people with a baseball bat, what events would follow? Would there be drastic differences to say, a paradox where I didn't? Would the people I hit ever feel the same again?

I think that the only reason I get that feeling is because I ponder the reactions of humans towards acts, violent and non-violent, and how it affects them.
I also find that in those moments, I feel a distinct feeling of freedom and power. I can be thinking of doing this, and I can with consequence, but no one around me will know unless I act upon it.

[Chemichonga]

I've actually had moments like that, plenty actually. Doesn't mean I'm violent or mentally unstable though. Like I wonder how certain things I could do at a specific moment would change the lives of witnesses.

If I were to go outside and strike random people with a baseball bat, what events would follow? Would there be drastic differences to say, a paradox where I didn't? Would the people I hit ever feel the same again?

I think that the only reason I get that feeling is because I ponder the reactions of humans towards acts, violent and non-violent, and how it affects them.
I also find that in those moments, I feel a distinct feeling of freedom and power. I can be thinking of doing this, and I can with consequence, but no one around me will know unless I act upon it.

Would you act upon it if you knew there were no restrictions?

[dinkfall]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Existentialism#Angst

[Chemichonga]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Existentialism#Angst

So are you saying I lack angst?

[Harsk]

"The main point is the attitude one takes to one's own freedom and responsibility, and the extent to which one acts in accordance with this freedom"

[Chemichonga]

"The main point is the attitude one takes to one's own freedom and responsibility, and the extent to which one acts in accordance with this freedom"

Purge the impure.

[Harsk]

Talk less. ;)

[Chemichonga]

Talk less. ;)

I usually type. Then again I find myself talking to no one when alone.

[OttoSturm]

Would I act upon it? Well there would have to be a few factors taken into account.

1: Will such an act benefit me?

2: Is there the possibility where I will be harmed or killed in the process?

3: Will acting upon the supposed thought, whatever it may be, prevent me from getting to my original destination?

Being human, if I gain nothing, then I see no point. If I can lose everything, then it's an avoidable risk.

[Harsk]

Could you be anymore angsty pertentious?

[Chemichonga]

Would I act upon it? Well there would have to be a few factors taken into account.

1: Will such an act benefit me?

2: Is there the possibility where I will be harmed or killed in the process?

3: Will acting upon the supposed thought, whatever it may be, prevent me from getting to my original destination?

Being human, if I gain nothing, then I see no point. If I can lose everything, then it's an avoidable risk.

Whether you gain or lose is up to how you perceive it.

[OttoSturm]

Could you be anymore angsty pertentious?

*Gives you some icecream* He's asking a serious question, you didn't have to take the time to read the thread, and reply, but you chose to. Why? Was this thread really that bad? He wants to stimulate intellectual conversation, since when has such a thing become worthy of insult? Please, don't reply to threads you don't like, just step away from the keyboard. :bang:

[OttoSturm]

Whether you gain or lose is up to how you perceive it.

By nature humans are materialistic, or at least that's how we're conditioned by society now. So the general perspective of gain is through material wealth. But I do somewhat see what you could mean there.

[Azrael Numidia]

i myself have children, and cant fathom why someone as intelligent as yourself, would waste the gift of life, by contemplating taking others away...

of all the things that are beautiful in this world, and the wonderful things you can do and build and create, you would rather choose suffering and indifference....

if someone took the life of a loved one, just because they had an urge they felt they must indulge, would that not leave you empty? if everyone followed your example of meaningless violence, what would this country be like?

do i believe some people deserve death? no, everyone deserves a chance at life.

do i belive people need to be put to death because of actions that forever change them into destructive beings? yes, but that does not mean they deserve it, its just what has to be done.

dont go seek help, try to find a meaning to life, and treasure the beauty and the design around you, and the gift of life and intelligence that you have been given.

the only person who can help yourself with these reckless thoughts is you.

good luck to you

-Azaziel

[Chemichonga]

*Gives you some icecream* He's asking a serious question, you didn't have to take the time to read the thread, and reply, but you chose to. Why? Was this thread really that bad? He wants to stimulate intellectual conversation, since when has such a thing become worthy of insult? Please, don't reply to threads you don't like, just step away from the keyboard. :bang:

Oh was that comment towards me? I'm quiet uncertain how I am categorized as with anxiety and insecurities... I wholly fond of myself.

[Ramathorn]

. I am well aware of the fact that it is all but a waste of time for an inevitable outcome.

Well, the one thing that drives mankind is his curiousity. I'm just going to assume that you see it this way cause you have lost yours maybe. All thinkers of all time made it through life on thier curiousity alone. Doing otherwise would negate this. Bringing these actions on yourself only means that you have given up on you curiousity because you feel there is nothing more to learn. Fact is until we know its pointless our curiousity keeps our species evolving and moving forward. We haven't even gotten to the piont of knowing everything yet so why stop. And if we do get to that point, then we can decide if it was worth it but until then we must rely on this.

[Chemichonga]

i myself have children, and cant fathom why someone as intelligent as yourself, would waste the gift of life, by contemplating taking others away...

of all the things that are beautiful in this world, and the wonderful things you can do and build and create, you would rather choose suffering and indifference....

if someone took the life of a loved one, just because they had an urge they felt they must indulge, would that not leave you empty? if everyone followed your example of meaningless violence, what would this country be like?

do i believe some people deserve death? no, everyone deserves a chance at life.

do i belive people need to be put to death because of actions that forever change them into destructive beings? yes, but that does not mean they deserve it, its just what has to be done.

dont go seek help, try to find a meaning to life, and treasure the beauty and the design around you, and the gift of life and intelligence that you have been given.

the only person who can help yourself with these reckless thoughts is you.

good luck to you

-Azaziel

Perhaps I tend to look at it on the other side. I treasure the beauty of death because what is life without death?

[Harsk]

*Gives you some icecream* He's asking a serious question, you didn't have to take the time to read the thread, and reply, but you chose to. Why? Was this thread really that bad? He wants to stimulate intellectual conversation, since when has such a thing become worthy of insult? Please, don't reply to threads you don't like, just step away from the keyboard. :bang:

No dairy, thanks. And I did read the post. Is it that bad? Sure. You call this intellectual stimulation? More like egotistical stimulation. The fact that one would come here to propose such self a serving and obviously absurd suggestion (thet they may actually just kill someone on a whim) in itself clearly reveals a desire for attention.

So, in that case... why did I reply? I thought thats why people post, to get replies.

[Chemichonga]

Well, the one thing that drives mankind is his curiousity. I'm just going to assume that you see it this way cause you have lost yours maybe. All thinkers of all time made it through life on thier curiousity alone. Doing otherwise would negate this. Bringing these actions on yourself only means that you have given up on you curiousity because you feel there is nothing more to learn. Fact is until we know its pointless our curiousity keeps our species evolving and moving forward. We haven't even gotten to the piont of knowing everything yet so why stop. And if we do get to that point, then we can decide if it was worth it but until then we must rely on this.

What is amazing is that you will never know everything. My curiosity is in the last moments of life and what do you need to live for when you only mean to die in the end.

[OttoSturm]

i myself have children, and cant fathom why someone as intelligent as yourself, would waste the gift of life, by contemplating taking others away...

of all the things that are beautiful in this world, and the wonderful things you can do and build and create, you would rather choose suffering and indifference....

if someone took the life of a loved one, just because they had an urge they felt they must indulge, would that not leave you empty? if everyone followed your example of meaningless violence, what would this country be like?

do i believe some people deserve death? no, everyone deserves a chance at life.

do i belive people need to be put to death because of actions that forever change them into destructive beings? yes, but that does not mean they deserve it, its just what has to be done.

dont go seek help, try to find a meaning to life, and treasure the beauty and the design around you, and the gift of life and intelligence that you have been given.

the only person who can help yourself with these reckless thoughts is you.

good luck to you

-Azaziel

No, no, madame or sir, you're mistaking the entire subject. This thread is not only about violence. It's about moments where you step back and realise that you can do anything you desire, it doesn't have to be violent. Haven't you felt this way once? Where you want to jump and click your heels together just because?

[Azrael Numidia]

Perhaps I tend to look at it on the other side. I treasure the beauty of death because what is life without death?

live out your life my friend, and let others do the same, then together, we can explore the adventures of death and whatever comes after.

=)

[Chemichonga]

No dairy, thanks. And I did read the post. Is it that bad? Sure. You call this intellectual stimulation? More like egotistical stimulation. The fact that one would come here to propose such self a serving and obviously absurd suggestion (thet they may actually just kill someone on a whim) in itself clearly reveals a desire for attention.

So, in that case... why did I reply? I thought thats why people post, to get replies.

Only reason I need your attention is for your opinion not for deep desire as you so put. It obviously caught your attention; so perhaps you engage me because you deeply desire to do so.

[Harsk]

What is amazing is that you will never know everything. My curiosity is in the last moments of life and what do you need to live for when you only mean to die in the end.


Wouldn't suicide be the proper experiment then? Or do you expect someone to reveal these secrets as you ritually disembowel them?

[Harsk]

It obviously caught your attention; so perhaps you engage me because you deeply desire to do so.


Yes, its whats called "calling you out" :)

[OttoSturm]

No dairy, thanks. And I did read the post. Is it that bad? Sure. You call this intellectual stimulation? More like egotistical stimulation. The fact that one would come here to propose such self a serving and obviously absurd suggestion (thet they may actually just kill someone on a whim) in itself clearly reveals a desire for attention.

So, in that case... why did I reply? I thought thats why people post, to get replies.

See now that's a better post. If you started out with a post like that instead of a simple one phrase insult then we wouldn't be having this conversation. Once again, I'm sure he was using killing someone on a whim as an example of the situation. Obviously there are other things you can do, just because you can. The question is, why do we hold ourselves back? (if it's non-violent)

[Azrael Numidia]

No, no, madame or sir, you're mistaking the entire subject. This thread is not only about violence. It's about moments where you step back and realise that you can do anything you desire, it doesn't have to be violent. Haven't you felt this way once? Where you want to jump and click your heels together just because?

theres a quote thats very true, "you ARE what you think about"
its starts with just a thought, and develops into obsession, and then becomes reality. open mindedness is very valuable, but thinking about things like this can be dangerous.

and i did not misunderstand, he is contemplating murder am i wrong?

[Harsk]

See now that's a better post. If you started out with a post like that instead of a simple one phrase insult then we wouldn't be having this conversation. Once again, I'm sure he was using killing someone on a whim as an example of the situation. Obviously there are other things you can do, just because you can. The question is, why do we hold ourselves back? (if it's non-violent)


I must have misunderstood when he said he was wondering if anyone else had random thoughts of killing... as far as being insulting goes, welcome to life, better get a helmet.

[Chemichonga]

Wouldn't suicide be the proper experiment then? Or do you expect someone to reveal these secrets as you ritually disembowel them?

I know I don't matter. Can you honestly say you don't? Besides I said it before. I don't feel desperate for attention I'm not on the verge of emotional breakdown. No emotions tied to these feelings just simple thoughts and somewhat of a necessity that is growing slowly. So far no one has given me a real reason not to, just these social reasons.

[OttoSturm]

theres a quote thats very true, "you ARE what you think about"
its starts with just a thought, and develops into obsession, and then becomes reality. open mindedness is very valuable, but thinking about things like this can be dangerous.

and i did not misunderstand, he is contemplating murder am i wrong?

Perhaps I misread then. But the general idea is freedom of will at any one moment in time, question being why is it that we hold ourselves back? (Once again, if the subject of thought is non-violent.)

[Chemichonga]

theres a quote thats very true, "you ARE what you think about"
its starts with just a thought, and develops into obsession, and then becomes reality. open mindedness is very valuable, but thinking about things like this can be dangerous.

and i did not misunderstand, he is contemplating murder am i wrong?

Choose to look at it how you want. Yet I am contemplating it among other things.. Although, I did ask if you felt the same or if it is normal.

[Ramathorn]

So far no one has given me a real reason not to, just these social reasons.

Because there aren't any reasons other then social reasons. You obviously have lost hope in society. In this case imagine the ant colony where one of the ants stops functioning like the rest and decides to start killing other ants.
Well the society of ants will imeadiatly lash out against him and kill him. This is cause that ant was hindering the ant colonies progression even if a rainstorm would come the next day and wipe it all out.
Society is your explanation. And its your deterent.

[Chemichonga]

Yes, its whats called "calling you out" :)

Ah, so in that, are you sure I desire attention or do you?

[Azrael Numidia]

Perhaps I misread then. But the general idea is freedom of will at any one moment in time, question being why is it that we hold ourselves back? (Once again, if the subject of thought is non-violent.)

we needent hold ourselves back from constructive behaviors, but we can just all run around, killing eachother.

"oh nothing matters, i dont, you dont, we all dont, lemme kill your son, stab your daughter, and watch your wife drown in a pool of her own blood"

multiply that madness by more than 100,000 and you get a BASIC idea of what the world would be like, if we all had this mindset and no order.

Order must be upheld, feel free to indulge ANYTHING you desire, as long as it upholds Order.

just because a few people feel they have no place in this world, dosent mean that the rest of us dont.

[Harsk]

I know I don't matter. Can you honestly say you don't? Besides I said it before. I don't feel desperate for attention I'm not on the verge of emotional breakdown. No emotions tied to these feelings just simple thoughts and somewhat of a necessity that is growing slowly. So far no one has given me a real reason not to, just these social reasons.

Do I matter? Who cares really? Prolly to some people.

No emotions tied to your feelings? I may be retarded but that sounded totally redundant.

A reason not to kill? Your not cut out for it.

[Chemichonga]

Because there aren't any reasons other then social reasons. You obviously have lost hope in society. In this case imagine the ant colony where one of the ants stops functioning like the rest and decides to start killing other ants.
Well the society of ants will imeadiatly lash out against him and kill him. This is cause that ant was hindering the ant colonies progression even if a rainstorm would come the next day and wipe it all out.
Society is your explanation. And its your deterent.

Society was built on a never ending cycle of meaninglessness.

[Ramathorn]

Society was built on a never ending cycle of meaninglessness.

So was all life, are you telling me your god or above your biological purpose.

[Chemichonga]

Do I matter? Who cares really? Prolly to some people.

No emotions tied to your feelings? I may be retarded but that sounded totally redundant.

A reason not to kill? Your not cut out for it.

Hmm, so what is a person cut out for it?

[Harsk]

Ah, so in that, are you sure I desire attention or do you?

Well, its 10:30 pm on a saturday night and I am still in the house on the puter, so I suppose you take what you can get. But unless your a petite lil blonde named mandy who likes latex and the top... I am pretty sure its you.

[Harsk]

Hmm, so what is a person cut out for it?

Someone who would not give it a second thought.

[Chemichonga]

So was all life, are you telling me your god or above your biological purpose.

Ah, so you believe in god. I believe that everything is just as it is and we play a big game of chance. You might get a wild card every now and again. Who says my purpose is above death; clearly it is not I just take look around.

[Ramathorn]

Someone who would not give it a second thought.

quote for truth :)

[Chemichonga]

Someone who would not give it a second thought.

You know this for a fact?

[Ramathorn]

Ah, so you believe in god. I believe that everything is just as it is and we play a big game of chance. You might get a wild card every now and again. Who says my purpose is above death; clearly it is not I just take look around.

I did not say I believed in god thats why I said above your biological purpose if thats what fits you scientificaly.

[Azrael Numidia]

Choose to look at it how you want. Yet I am contemplating it among other things.. Although, I did ask if you felt the same or if it is normal.

ill write from personal experience and anwser your question, as i feel you are a brother to me, in the way that we are both enduring a very tough world to live in, and all we have is eachother.

is it normal, when your young, or ignorant to what murder feels like. i myself, sad to say have killed others in self defence, and i ask the creator for forgiveness every day of my life for what ive done. its not quick and easy like in the movies, you cant imagine having to watch another person suffer agonizingly and watch their eyes go dark. theres nothing beautiful about it, and i hope you havent killed yet and never have to.

i myself have never contemplated murder, but when i was younger i would have dreams for months that i was a man in armor and that i was participating in giant battles and killing many people.
i dont know if that was memories of a past life, or ADD, but the realistic feelings it gave me changed me from child to adult alot earlier than everyone else.
your not alone my friend but you must understand these things are different in quiet contemplation, than when put into action.

[Chemichonga]

I did not say I believed in god thats why I said above your biological purpose if thats what fits you scientificaly.

Ah so we break down my mental status as scientifically?

[Ramathorn]

Ah so we break down my mental status as scientifically?

Well obviously nothing else was working :)

[Chemichonga]

Well obviously nothing else was working :)

I'll admit, you made me laugh.

[Harsk]

You know this for a fact?

No, I just make this shit up as I go.

[Ramathorn]

I'll admit, you made me laugh.

Well if thats enuff to keep me off your kill list then I'm satisfied. :)

[Chemichonga]

ill write from personal experience and anwser your question, as i feel you are a brother to me, in the way that we are both enduring a very tough world to live in, and all we have is eachother.

is it normal, when your young, or ignorant to what murder feels like. i myself, sad to say have killed others in self defence, and i ask the creator for forgiveness every day of my life for what ive done. its not quick and easy like in the movies, you cant imagine having to watch another person suffer agonizingly and watch their eyes go dark. theres nothing beautiful about it, and i hope you havent killed yet and never have to.

i myself have never contemplated murder, but when i was younger i would have dreams for months that i was a man in armor and that i was participating in giant battles and killing many people.
i dont know if that was memories of a past life, or ADD, but the realistic feelings it gave me changed me from child to adult alot earlier than everyone else.
your not alone my friend but you must understand these things are different in quiet contemplation, than when put into action.

Self defense is one thing but doing it just because you can and might find something enjoying is another. Death is instant pre-death is dragged out over time who knows if it is a positive feeling to some or negative to others.

[Chemichonga]

Well if thats enuff to keep me off your kill list then I'm satisfied. :)

Chances are I won't find you.

[Azrael Numidia]

Self defense is one thing but doing it just because you can and might find something enjoying is another. Death is instant pre-death is dragged out over time who knows if it is a positive feeling to some or negative to others.

well, this topic makes me sick to my stomach,and i feel ive shared all ive nedded to share, i hope you find what you are looking for and that it gives you peace.

good luck